60% ? 72%? My stress level is just like what’s on these dark chocolates. This is a very memorable day. a day that best describes this word: 답답해. But today I should remind my self that I should be 100% grateful for being blessed. Thank you Coeli 🙂
I first heard this word, 답답해 (Taptaphe) from Won, in Philippines. That time he said he could not explain the exact emotion out of this word. If you type this in google translate, it won’t give you a good equivalent in English either.
But today, I felt an extreme level of frustration, when you wish to say something, but you cannot say it in a way that others would understand it. I felt that even if we try, they wouldn’t understand what we exactly mean, and it will just end up with them having a wrong impression of what we really mean to say.
My stress for this day was coupled with my school works and my part time job schedule. I feel very tired. I just found myself crying while others are following the instructions from the vocal coach. I only spent 20 minutes or less in my part time job , it was an emotional breakdown that I won’t forget. I hate it when people see me cry. I don’t want to be seen as “weak” as that. I really appreciate the hugs from Lala, Ate Zel, Raim and Coelli. Lala told me that when I am tired, I should learn to say it. Today I admit that I am weak. I am tired. I miss my family. There’s nothing wrong with admitting that you are weak, but just learn that the next day, you have to rise from it all. Do something that would bring back the new and improved you. Thesis. Statistics. Part time job. Tomorrow, I am stronger.